I'm singing!

In this week I was talking about my old job, with Rúbens (Urusai's drummer). My old job, if you dont know, was singer... Oh yeah! I was a singer! I think so, I participated on 9 album recording. I'm not sure, because I participated on kids album, helping in producer. I think so, 6 years ago, I stoped! I decide be nurse and bith labor supporting! Yes! Now I'm doula!

I stoped because so much people sayd I was proud and selfish... I hate make people feel bad... I feel bad together... And I stoped to sing!

One or two years after that I decide stop, my producer charged me a favor and I recorded my last participation on an album recording...

After this, the music has become a nuisance. The music, which was everything in my life, it became horrible. I could no longer sing...

For five years, I was plunged into depression...

I do not remember that...

I'm not depressed now. In last year I changed my life radically! And the music is back in my life!
I'm not a singer again, but I'm happy, because I can listen music again!

I remember that, because I was talking about this with Rubens, and I saw the CD on my desk, near my computer... I taked the CD and read the date: 2004.

I do not remember that...



This music was my last: Ana uge tu liabudak! - I was born for praise! - Eu nasci pra te adorar!

For you...

Today I was thinking about you...

Thinking about how you are...

Thinking about if you will love me or, just, like me...

I was thinking about you!

Thinking abou how much I want you...

How much I like you... and maybe, How much I love you...

Why I like you? I realy don't know...

But, you are changing my life!

Times of Transformation!

My life is in the cross...

My dream will be come reality or I will wake up!

I'm worried and tired... I worked so much for a dream that wake up in my heart!

In the long long time, I will not let me dream... But the dreams wake up in my heart, because my friend's dream...

If the dream becomes reality, I will be more strong!

If not... I'll say "goodbye"!

Waiting...

Waiting for you...

Wainting for your love...

Waiting...

Waiting...

My tears in my face,

I feel you, without you...

This is the telepaty? I realy don't know...

I don't know if you like me... But I like you...

Truly mine? I don't know...

But I'm truly yours!

I believe

Today, I was listening the music: I believe (YOFFY)

I ask for my friend that translate the lyric for me...

The music talk about when he was a child, he had dreams.
now, he is looking up on the sky, look the stars in the night
say,

"how can i make my dream come true?" "how much do i need to scream to make my dream happens?"

he feels lonely, alone walking without you
but he start to think
he feels a little saticfaction in his heart when the silence in the dawn
and recalls his past memory of childhood
one more... one more chance.
again
nothing is impossible
he will not look back because somebody believed him
he wants to tell everybody he will meet, what he feels...

So much times I say: "how can i make my dream come true?" "how much do i need to scream to make my dream happens?"
But my dreams was killed!

I dont have any dreams... No more!
But I'm fine...

I really cryed because this music...
This music remember me my lost dreams...

The Revolutionary Girl!

Today I whatched Utena. Was my 6th episode...

I see myself in Utena today... Some times ago, I think I was like Anty...

I was arrested, no freedom, no life... Like Anty...

She obeys, don't have decicion, because she can't be herself!

But I'm like Utena today! I'm making the revolution in my life and this is dificult for the people understend.

My element is fire, my zodiac sign is aries...
I'm The Revolutionary Girl?
Yes! I think so!

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry, but I dont love you...

I'm sorry, but my heart don't want love anymore...

I have feelings, but they are so far...

I wait someday, make my heart warm again...

Sorry and just bye!

I'm happy!

Today is a beutiful day for me! I receive the better new of my life, in the last times...

My heart is so glad! My smile is happy! ^^

Because somebuddy loves me!

He is so far, but is so closed too! I can't stop think about him!

Masashi, you are special for me! You live in my heart!

I cut my hair

I cut my hair in this last week...

Not is a great thing, but my hair is so beutifull now! ^^

Do you think about?

Worried...

Oh right!

Yes! I'm worried... AGAIN!
My work make me worried...

To day was a so dificult day, because everything, don't are in my hands anymore...
God help me and save me, because I'm so worried...
The Bible says: "Don't worry!" But I don't can make this...

I hope can sleep in this night!

My friends from so long, will be so desapointed with me, if I don't can help them...
They want so much a special help for come here...

I'm worry... so worry...

Oh my God! Some body give me a coffee!!! Or tea... or a Diet Coke!!!

I need calm down!