If he knows...

How much I tried gatch my dreams, more end more I was far from my objectives!

After I see that dreams are possible, today I can separate my dreams and my objectives!

I really think about my professional dreams realised and my personal dreams realised. One hurt other. What is more important to me? professional or personal?
Bout is not possible!

I understood that to much more important to me, is my love, because this is the unic thing that make me wakeup every morning!
He never knows about this!

I just wanna tell him that I have a deep admiration for everything that he is like person!
I really, really appreciate every inch of his personality, his thoughts, ideas and words!
He never knows how much I love his face, his body and his way to speak... he is sweet and my oly one desire, is hug him and say how much I love him, again!

These days, I lost my hope and needed recover my sanity. Because I can't see way to the problems that I have here and this situation...

I lost a lot of things before he back to his country... but afterI try, by my hard work, recover the way... not possible!
How much I swam, more and more I was far from the beach!
I'm really tired, because I lost to much time trying make everything from my way!
Now, I'll start again and feel the waves leaving me back or to the place that he is and I'll meet him again!

So difficult!
But I'll be more happy a little bit, if he knows how much I love him!...

(picture: Brazillian signal language - I love You!)