My falt

When you will firgive me?
What I need make for you believe me?
What I need make for you forgive me forever?
I feel bad because you don't speak to me...
How much times I stay awake thinking and reminding that night...
How much times I desire your hand holding my hand...

I just miss you and I feel bad because you can't be here and this is my falt...

How much times I cry because I know that is my falt!...

We asked what we do! I decided!

I made everything and the true love is that begin in myself and complete myself!
This love touch another people, but this love back to your heart!

In this night, when the sky is gray, I'm thinking about my heart and what I feel...

My window was closed, because is raining... But I open and feel that cold wind coming and touch my face...

In this moment I feel my heart receiving relief...

I want cry, but I can't cry...
Just my body is screaming, because the tears can't come!
My whole body is paining...

The wind can't decid what the fire will burn...
The wind is not strong enough to extinguish the fire and in an unsuccessful attempt to extinguish the fire, it will disperse the flames! And everything will catch fire!

The wind feeds the fire and can only put out the fire if the flame is small!

The fire that I have in my heart not is a little flame... always been a controlled big fire and the wind is not strong enough to extinguish it.

Forget!
The desicion is mine, too!

Subliminal

Yesterday I was reading a music.
Translating...

I realy believe that when we sleep, we can go to other places...
Our subconscious goes in everywhere...
Maybe when we are missing somebody, we goes see this people in our dreams.

I begin pratice this when I was 9 years old...
When I was 11 years old, I wish on my window, saying to the wind: "Send my message to other side of the world and speak to my future love that I need him... And bring him to me!"

I made this to much times, look my sky in the night... feeling the cold wind of winter on my face...

My heart is fire, needs air for burn...
I love my wind that make me happy even he is far to me...

Weak

Today I feel weak...

I made every necessary for be stronger... but I can't.

I'm afraid, I'm scared, I'm crying...

I'm thinking: What I will make now?

I need be stronger... Because very bad things will happend and I don't know if I will can be able to suport...

My worst nightmare can happend...
I'm not depressive. I'm in trouble, but maybe I'll be worst.
I just need be stronger...



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yMWaJwD25A&feature=related

Hard times...

Today I need power and energy, because tomorrow I need decide my life...

I need be stronger, I need knowledge...

If you are there, please, send me power, send me energy!

Tomorrow I will bury my past... in truth, I will begin bury my past...

I hope be stronger and be victorious!

Stay with me, as I'm with you by spirit and heart!...
I need your protection, your hand holding my hands...
Stay with me, please... stay with me!

Cat, cat...

What the sound cat make?

My cat make 'Mia~u'...

But maybe your cat make 'Meeww'...

If your cat is japanese will make 'Mya~' or 'Nya~'...

Every country have a cat sounds! This is so interesting!

My cat is black, it have yellow eyes...

But I love another cat too...

And you? Like cats?

Half Drink

Today, Somebody says me 'half drink'...
But, I tink so, maybe, I need a complete drink!

I'm fighting today...
Fighting because I need peace... I need be happy, I need be stronger...

Maybe I need my half... my heart half, soul half, soul mate...

Maybe I just need a coffee... with my half.

My heart...

Here, every week I tell about my heart...

On the storm I'm now...
But my heart is burning!

Some times I cried, some moments I just feel everything burning!

Some times I cried by my anger, another times I cried about love...

If somebody make me anger, I don't will think about this...
I just will think about my love, because the fire of my love give me cure, make me warm, make my time be slowdown...

I just will think about you!
About how much is comforting my love for you...
This make me calm again...

Now I know that you can feel!
Please, give me your sholder, your lap, your kindness, your sweetness again...
You never know how much I need you! How much I need your words!

Would you feel?

This night I was in trouble, feeling a terrible sensation, crying...

I cried a rain of tears...
I was so sad this night, needing your warm feeling, your hand holding me...

I just wanted your sholder, your help, your kindness...

I miss your sweetness!

I have to much troubles in my life this night... But I just needed your presence this night...
And I ask for myself: Would you feel my feelings?
Maybe not...
I just want be happy again... I'm suffering because others make me bad things...
I don't want feel anger about this unfortunate people...

I have 4 wonderful friends, that speaking to me, making me calm...
Thanks my darlings! I love you 4ever!

No sugar!

Hey darlings and dears...

This morning I wake up so happy... go to the kitchen make coffee, (like always)!
I made coffee and see my sugar bowl... where is my sugar? Was no sugar... (T__T)

Oh F*king Sh*t! Coffee without sugar? ECA!(soud of desgosting)
I remember somebody... somebody likes coffee without sugar...

Well... today I drink coffee without sugar... I'm coffee adict...

I'll ask: This is a disease?
I think so: maybe...

Hey... tell me: You have coffee disease? (haha)

Don't suffer!

"Hey, my love...
Don't suffer!
I don't want you suffering!

My words are so hard, so stronger... but I just love you! It's a simple and difficult feeling!

I never will forget you! You too, Never forget me, please!"
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This weekend was a great moment to me...
I was learning about real love!

My master is keep waiting for her love... She teach me about this complicated and so simple feeling...

I was listening a music so beautiful...
The name is: Dream catcher - by Olivia

My mind always remembers yasashisa no kakera
mune no naka dakishimete

My heart binded by tears
sasayaka na 一瞬(toki) mo
kanawanai itoshisa wo motometeru

ah hoshi wo kazoete
nemureru you ni
anata ni tsutsumarete

* I wanna be your dream catcher
kokoro no oku sakanai hana wo
itsu no hi ka shinjite
I wanna be your dream catcher
ima hajimete umarekawaru
Fly again x3

My heart never surrenders
kodomo datta koro no
massugu na manazashi wa kawaranai

ah mitsumeru dake de
jishaku no you ni
omoi wo tabaneteku

I wanna be your dream catcher
donna kanashimi ga otozuretemo
mamoritai anata wo
I wanna be your dream catcher
ima hajimete tsuyoku nareru
Fly again

I feel something sneak into me
It surprises me
Opens me

* repeat